I have breast cancer

[wallycat]

My biopsy turned out positive.
It is Stage 1 lobular cancer.
My radiologist still can't believe we found it.
NOTHING on the Mammogram. Nothing on the ultrasound.
MRI showed something odd and even that had nice, round smooth (not the classic star-burst)-not indicative of breast cancer.
Biopsy showed cancer.
I would have been a ticking bomb waiting for it to show and who knows what size it would be.....
guess that is a good news band news thing, huh?
:( :(

[clairea]

I am so sorry. I know you have been worried about this. Thank goodness you and your doctor continued to pursue the concerns so that it was caught as Stage 1. You will be in my prayers.

[lindrusso]

Oh, Ana, I'm so sorry.

I don't know much about breast cancer, but it sounds like they caught it very early and therefore should be very treatable? Not that it makes it any less scary for you, I'm sure.

What caused them to do so many tests when it didn't show up elsewhere? If you don't mind my asking. Thank goodness they pushed foward!

Best wishes. Please keep us updated.

Many hugs and prayers coming your way,
Alysha

[avariell]

i am very sorry you are going through this... but i applaud the tenacity of you and your doctor for finding it.
good luck with your treatments. you will be in my thoughts.

[colleency]

(((Ana))) Know that you have lots of people sending prayers and good thoughts for you.

[beacooker]

I am so sorry to hear this. How great that you caught it so early, though. Still, what a shock. Hugs to you.

[SDMomChef]

((hugs))!!

[linsleyd]

Ana, I'm so sorry but I'm so glad it was caught early. I'll send all the prayers and good thoughts your way.

((()))

[testkitchen45]

Oh, Ana, I'm so sorry. . . . What caused them to do so many tests when it didn't show up elsewhere? If you don't mind my asking. Thank goodness they pushed foward!

As she said, I am so sorry also. I hope treatment is 100% successful. May I please second the question about why they wanted to do an MRI when so much else looked good, if you don't mind our asking? You will be in my prayers.

[funniegrrl]

So sorry, but so glad that it's so early. That is definitely the good-news-within-the-bad.

[wallycat]

Oh, Ana, I'm so sorry.

I don't know much about breast cancer, but it sounds like they caught it very early and therefore should be very treatable? Not that it makes it any less scary for you, I'm sure.

What caused them to do so many tests when it didn't show up elsewhere? If you don't mind my asking. Thank goodness they pushed foward!

Best wishes. Please keep us updated.

Many hugs and prayers coming your way,
Alysha

The ultrasound showed a shadow, but nothing like cancer. The radiologist's words were: "I'm not sure what this is...it is too small to biopsy so we will do an MRI."
The MRI showed the area where the ultrasound looked funny just fine, but there was a different area on the same breast that "highlighted" on the MRI. They wanted to biopsy that spot.
That came back positive.

[Andrea_2]

I'm very sorry to hear that, Ana. I'm glad it was caught early though, and I hope that your treatment goes smoothly.

[kwormann]

I am so sorry Ana. I will be thinking of you!

[cumulus]

((Hugs!!))

Bravo to you and your doctors for being so proactive in figuring out what is wrong. It is certainly not the news you wanted to hear, but a blessing to have found it early.

My thoughts are with you! Best of luck!

[DmOrtega]

...

Bravo to you and your doctors for being so proactive in figuring out what is wrong. It is certainly not the news you wanted to hear, but a blessing to have found it early.

...

My thoughts exactly! Technology is always changing and the odds for a full recovery are in your favor. It's really great they caught it early.

[Clover]

Ana, I'm so sorry to hear this but glad it was found early. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

[gertdog]

Ana, I'm so sorry for what you're going through, but glad they caught it early. Sending hugs and many good thoughts your way.

[LakeMartinGal]

Well, d@mn! :(

I was just about to pm you when I saw this thread... While no BC is good, stage 1 is the best of the bad. Have they said what treatment they're going to do? PM me, if you don't want to answer 'out loud'...

I am so sorry this is happening to you! It's very scary, and you'll probably cry a lot... I know I did! Please let us know if there's anything we can do for you. Hugs, good thoughts and prayers be with you!

Could you pm me your last name, so I can put you on the prayer list at church?

(((((Ana)))))

[Gilgamesh37]

Ana, thoughts and positive vibes from me as well. I know you must still be in shock, but they have caught it very early and are acting accordingly. My best friend will celebrate her 13th yr since her diagnosis in a few weeks; the science and treatments have come so very far in a short time, and you have an excellent arsenal at your disposal.

[muriel3002]

{{{ana}}} I'm so sorry at the way this is turning out. You'll be in my prayers...

[Robyn1007]

Oh, Ana, sweetie, I am so very sorry to hear this, I have tears running down my face. First, you are in my thoughts and prayers and have been every day. I am so thankful that your doctors didn't let this go. There are so many successful treatments out there that can take you to a very fulfilling life afterwards, please remember this as you go through the next few months. If you ever question what a doctor tells you as you go through the next few weeks please don't hesitate to ask for second or third opinions. Don't give up control of your life and treatment!

Hopefully, knowing that so many people have such wonderful lives post treatment can help give you strength. My beloved auntie was a very positive, joyful person prior to diagnosis and I can't believe how much more she is today. It was a year ago this month that she finished chemo. You absolutely can make it through this a stronger person. My prayers are that you find peace soon and that in just a few months we will call you a breast cancer survivor and not a patient. Please don't hesitate to pm or email me if you just need someone to talk to.

[SueK]

(((Ana)))- I'm sorry to hear your news, but glad they've caught it early. Good thoughts and prayers coming to you from my direction......

[Robyn1007]

I think Kay said it best! Well d@mn!

[KristinK]

(((Ana))) What terrible news, but better that they caught it early. I am so very sorry. Take care of yourself.

[Jazzmatazz49]

It sounds like you are in very good hands, since they didn't just send you home without a thorough investigation. Good luck, and keep us posted.

[kima]

Oh Ana I am so very sorry to hear this news.
I know you are a strong person and will maintain a positive attitude .

We are all here for you!

[kcmo727]

Dear Ana,

So sorry to hear this news, waiting for the results must have been so difficult. I feel such relief for you that it was found at Stage 1. My mom is a Stage 1 survivor, coming up on 6 years. If you would ever like to talk to her, please pm me. This is a stressful and very emotional time for you, please take good care of yourself and we will all be praying for you. Sending hugs your way!!!

[IndyKF]

So sorry to hear this, but glad that it was found so early. Thoughts and prayers heading your way!

[tyroleancutie]

I am so sorry to hear this. We'll keep you in our thoughts (((hugs)))

Thank God they caught it so early!

[Kristal]

Ana, I'm so sorry to hear about the diagnosis. It is fortunate they caught it so early, though. Sending lots of good thoughts your way.

[Kathy B]

I am very sorry to hear this, and I know it must be a scary time. It sounds like you have a great medical team working with you that even slightly suspicious things were followed up on. I hope that gives you confidence as you move forward in your treatment......I am sure you are in good hands! Take care of yourself, (and let those around you take care of you too)! We ARE all here for you!

[Meganator]

Ana,
I'm sorry this has happened to you, as it is a very scary thing. But like so many others have said, I am so glad that it was discovered so early. Good luck.
Megan

[ChristieinMB]

Bravo to you and your doctors for being so proactive in figuring out what is wrong. It is certainly not the news you wanted to hear, but a blessing to have found it early.
What she said... my prayers are with you. sounds as if you have a good medical team for treatment.

[Chelle D]

((((Ana)))) You are in my prayers. There are so many people that come out of BC fully recovered and yours was caught early. Prayers to you for a speedy recovery and emotional strength.

[lisas3575]

((((((((((Ana))))))))))) I am so glad they caught it early! My thoughts will be with you as you go through treatment. That's just the sh*ts. :(

[Gracie]

Ana - my thoughts and prayers will be with you.

Please realize that you are extremely fortunate to have been caught at such an early stage - thank goodness for that shadow! even though the shadow wasn't the issue, they never would have taken a closer look without it. The physicians I work for have a mantra - early detection/early cure/easier treatment. You will get through this!

Loren

[jmarie]

You have experienced every woman's worsr nightmare. I thank God that you had the right people who weren't going to give up and you got it early.

My prayers will go up for you for strength and PEACE and a speedy recovery as you go through the phases of treatment.

God bless.
Joyce

[Pony]

Oh Ana. I'm so sorry. I will repeat what everyone else has said....thank goodness they were sooo thorough. My thoughts are with you. Take care of yourself.

Michelle

[funnybone]

I'm sorry you have to go through this, but it's a blessing to have found it early. Sending possitive thoughts and your way.

What are you treatment options, or have those not been discussed yet?

[donleyk]

(((Ana))) More good thoughts, prayers and well wishes for you. It is a blessing it was found so early. Keep us posted and know that you have a huge support team rooting for you!

[wallycat]

Thank you all for such an outpouring of support.
I know I am not the first woman diagnosed (and sadly not the last) but when it happens to you...you feel like you're on an island and terrified.

I have only spoken to my radiologist so far.
She says if it were her, she would get lumpectomy and radiation and depending on the lymph node, go from there. Chemo is usually for larger than 1 cm tumors so not sure until they go in what will actually be found. They've been waffling between 9mm, 1cm and with blood-flow on the MRI 1.3....so I guess one day at a time............

I guess I am a poster child for my own words to patients I have had for various conditions....you have to take care of yourself, exercise, eat right, blah, blah and even WHEN you do it all, there is no guarantee.
Now if I could just listen to myself and stop blaming myself!!

[LakeMartinGal]

I guess I am a poster child for my own words to patients I have had for various conditions....you have to take care of yourself, exercise, eat right, blah, blah and even WHEN you do it all, there is no guarantee.
Now if I could just listen to myself and stop blaming myself!!Just think how much worse it could have been if you didn't take such good care of yourself! None of this is your fault! It just happened, and you're one of the lucky ones to have found it early! ;) Good instincts, and good physicians! You'll come through this just fine...:)

[Chefzhat]

Hugs, Ana. I'm sorry you have to deal with this. ((((hugs))))

Debie

[erinlovesmarc]

((((Ana)))) This is horrible news...

Having gone through cancer myself, I know what you're going through...it is very scary stuff even when the doctors say it's treatable! People will say not to worry and you will still worry...it's always in the back of your mind even after it's treated...just know that it gets easier as times goes by...

Good luck and I'll be praying for you, erin

[Laura]

Ana, I am so sorry to hear your news, but thankful that they caught it when they did.

You and your DH are in my prayers.

Laura

[JenniferJJ]

I am so sorry to hear this news Ana. Wishing you the best.

[HeidiD]

My biopsy turned out positive.
It is Stage 1 lobular cancer.
My radiologist still can't believe we found it.
NOTHING on the Mammogram. Nothing on the ultrasound.
MRI showed something odd and even that had nice, round smooth (not the classic star-burst)-not indicative of breast cancer.
Biopsy showed cancer.


Ana, this is the exact same scenario my mom went through five years ago. Lobular is very tricky to diagnose. Luckily for my mom, she had a doctor who firmly insisted on a biopsy following 2 mammograms, an ultrasound and an MRI that showed nothing. The good news for her, like you, is that when cancer is caught early, the prognosis is the best.

My mom opted for a lumpectomy but her margins didn't come out clean, so she went back for a mastectomy because that's how she felt she'd have the most peace of mind. Her follow-up was 6 months of chemo and now she's on a five-year course of Arimidex (like Tamoxifen). That year had its challenges but she has done fantastic and we look forward to having her with us for many more years.

I hope you get all the information and support you need to make the decision that's right for you. My mom is a big fan of Susan Love's breast cancer books.

Wishing you the best,

Heidi

[Canice]

Ana, I'm so sorry you got the dreaded news, it's got to be shocking. Thank goodness you have such a proactive and persistent medical team on your side and caught this early on. My heart goes out to you.

[Gecko]

Ana, I am so sorry to hear about this news. I am echoing what others have said about it being good news that it was caught early. You do all the right things - exercising, eating healthy, etc - but it totally sucks when bad things happen to such good people. Just know that we will be here supporting you every step of the way.

[Hoodone]

Wow, I'm so sorry to hear this. Maybe we can have a "bulletin board members wear pink" day for you!

[Molli526]

(((Ana))) I am glad you were such a great advocate for yourself. There are some great cancer centers in your area.

[EllenL]

So sorry to hear this, but from the intelligence, spirit, and spunk that are always in your postings, I know that you are going to come through this with flying colors! Wishing you the best.

[DmOrtega]

...Now if I could just listen to myself and stop blaming myself!!

What have you knowing done to yourself to give yourself Cancer? I really don't see how you can even think this! You need to focus your energies on healing not beating yourself down for something that you cannot control.

[littlelion1961]

((((Ana))))

This time last year I was going through the same thing as you. Both Kay (LakeMartinGirl), and Robyn1007 were a big help to me. All you have to do is reach out.

You are blessed because you have found it so early, and already you have a lot of people praying for you; I relied on this while going through my treatment. Again, just tell us what you need.

Are you single? If so, find someone to go to appointments with you. Four ears are better than two. Plus, there may be days when you will need a spiritual partner sitting beside you.

There are lots of tips and advice we can give you when you are ready. First, and foremost is that for the next several weeks you have to put yourself first - no exceptions.

God bless you

~Paula

[foodfiend]

I'm so sorry, but as everyone said, it is in early stages. Now's the time to fight! When my father had cancer, our doctor told us the best ally is a positive outlook, which you've got. I'll be thinking of you!

[erinl]

((((((Ana))))))

[KristaMB]

I'll echo what others have said. I'm so sorry to hear about your breast cancer, that just sucks. :( And, please don't blame yourself!
Wishing you a speedy and successful course of treatment,
~Krista

[leightx]

I'm so sorry Ana. I don't have any words of wisdom, but I will be thinking of you and hoping for the best.

[lindrusso]

What have you knowing done to yourself to give yourself Cancer? I really don't see how you can even think this! You need to focus your energies on healing not beating yourself down for something that you cannot control.

I can't speak for Ana, but for DH it wasn't so much blaming himself - I think he just couldn't help wondering what he could have done differently to have avoided it. Probably it would have happened regardless of what he did or didn't do, but I think it's just one of those things you can't help wonder about. What if he had eaten more green veggies when he was younger? That sort of thing. I think it's just a natural reaction to the whole "why me?" question.

[slknight]

(((Ana))), I am so sorry to hear the news. It is a miracle they caught it so early if there is a bright side to look at. I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

[sneezles]

{{{{{{{{Ana}}}}}}}},
I can't even begin to imagine what you are dealing with right now but I know that you are a very strong woman and will beat this. You will be in my prayers every day and if there is every anything you need just let me know.
Susan

[jmarie]

Now if I could just listen to myself and stop blaming myself!!


This is scary enough without trying to blame yourself. There are a lot of otherwise healthy people walking around right now with various diseases/ailments and cancers. People who have worked really hard at taking care of themselves, like my brother who ended up with quadruple bypass surgery. This is not fair...it is not fair that it has happened to you or anyone else, for that matter...and it is ok to say that!

Stuff happens and you need to concentrate on the treatment and getting well...I think it is normal to say "Had I only..." Thing is, you caught it early...We can all thank God for that.

You are in such a tough spot right now....and I wish words could take away the pain....could make you feel better...could take this unreal situation you are in, and make it go away. But at this point in my life, even though all the kindnesses are appreciated....it doesn't make it any more unreal for you. You still have to live it and, for that, my heart simply aches for you.

Go with your tears, for now. Please don't blame yourself. We are here for you to pour your heart out to. Oh, Ana, we are all devistated with you. :(

Joyce

[mrswaz]

((Ana))- Prayers headed your way from up North. Take care of yourself!

[Robyncz]

Ana,
I'm so sorry you're going through this. I'm confident that you'll be composing a "the cancer's all gone!" post before we know it.

Take care of yourself!

Robyn

[tulip255]

I too am sending hugs your way. You are a strong woman and will get through this. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

[Goin' Coastal]

(((Ana)))

Echoing all the good thoughts and support in this thread. Wishing you the best......

Char

[Valerie226]

Ana, ain't that enough to pi$$ you off! It sounds like you've got a great team of very thorough doctors who will go the distance to make sure you have the best odds of a cure. it must be very very tiny and very early. I'm not a religious person so I can't pray for you, but do wish you the very best of luck in this difficult time.

[JackieO]

{{{Ana & DH}}}

I'm so sorry. But there are a lot of positive things to focus on, as many of the others have said.

Take gentle care of yourself.

[Kay Henderson]

(((((Ana)))))

What a revoltin' development! Please know that my thoughts and those of all of your BB friends are with you as you figure out what to do.

Please keep us posted so we can best support you.

Kay

[ErinM]

Ana, I'm sorry to hear about this. I'm glad that it was caught early, though. Stay strong, and you know that this group will be here to support you as you make your decisions.

[DmOrtega]

I can't speak for Ana, but for DH it wasn't so much blaming himself - I think he just couldn't help wondering what he could have done differently to have avoided it. Probably it would have happened regardless of what he did or didn't do, but I think it's just one of those things you can't help wonder about. What if he had eaten more green veggies when he was younger? That sort of thing. I think it's just a natural reaction to the whole "why me?" question.

You're right. I tend to wonder what I could have done differently at times also.

[ourthreegirls]

Everyone else has spoken so much more eloquently than I could.
Just know there are more thoughts and prayers coming from Kentucky. :o

[blazedog]

I guess I am a poster child for my own words to patients I have had for various conditions....you have to take care of yourself, exercise, eat right, blah, blah and even WHEN you do it all, there is no guarantee.
Now if I could just listen to myself and stop blaming myself!!

So sorry to hear about this development -- I am far from a Pollyanna but how lucky you were to have found it at this stage through an MRI -- although there are no guarantees, my understanding is that the "cure" rate at 5 years for this stage is almost 100%.

As for blaming yourself, just STOP IT. We like to think that we are in control of things but for most things we aren't -- especially for diseases like breast cancer which aren't a life style disease.

There are things we can control but for much of the rest, life is just a giant crapshoot.

[newcook]

I am so very sorry to hear this. Please be sure that I will be praying for you.

[cindy47031]

Everyone else has spoken so much more eloquently than I could.
Just know there are more thoughts and prayers coming from Kentucky. :o

and also from Tennessee. ((((Ana))))

[KathrynY]

((((Ana))))) I'm so sorry. More good wishes and prayers coming your way for extra strength and successful treatment.

[cookinator]

(((((Ana))))) Sending hugs to you and all the support you need to get through this...you have a wonderful group of friends here. There's a lot of love going your way!

[mom2garret]

I will be honest, I have not read all the replies. All I can say is thank god they found it early! Positive and best wishes coming your way.
Jodi

[TKay]

You get a "well, d@amn!" from me too. This is not the news anyone wants to hear. I'm so sorry. Please hang in there and keep us posted (as much as you want to share). I'll send some healing vibes and prayers your way. Take care.

ETA: I know this is all new, but you might think about finding an online support group like this one, only dedicated to people facing a diagnosis like yours. When I was going through infertitlity treatments, I found a bb that offered fantastic support. I know the people around here are phenomenal, but you might get some insight you wouldn't get anywhere else. Just a thought.

[Jessica]

Ana, I am so sorry to hear this news. It is good the doctors were vigilant and caught the cancer early, but it still must be frightening for you and I am sending prayers for healing of body and of spirit. Please keep us posted. ((((Ana))))

[jellyben]

I am so sorry to hear this. Add me to the list of those wishing you well. I will be thinking of you.

[shoyski]

Thank you for sharing your news so we can all do our best to support you. I hope you can find some calm place inside yourself to collect your thoughts as you go through all of this.

Shelley

[Kayaksoup]

((((Ana)))) wishing you all the strength in the world.

[mbrogier]

(((Ana)))

I am so sorry you're having to face this awful diagnosis. Like the others, I'm so glad that your doctors caught it so early. Your recovery rate is so very favorable.

Don't beat yourself up over what you thought you could have done differently. I think your dedication to good nutrition is a factor in not having a worse form of breast cancer.

We're all here to support you. I'm praying for you.

[DanaSD]

(((Ana)))

Like everyone else has send, its so great that you caught it early and kept doing additional tests even though earlier tests didn't pick up anything postive.

There's a really great orgnization called Y-me. My boss used their assistance when she was diagnosed and then got a lot of her friends involved with doing fundraising for them (we put together a huge team every year for their mothers day fundraising walk). Its a support organization to help you when you've first been diagnosed and asking youself "Why me??? My boss also used them while she was going through treatment when she wasn't feeling well and wanted to talk to someone without bugging her doctor. Give them a call if you have any questions or just need someone to talk to. I went to a luncheon and the speaker had so many great things to say about how others in the organization helped them through their treatment.

http://www.y-me.org/

[tennisashoe]

Sending positive energy your way. Lots of it in this thread. Praying that it helps.

[MusicMom]

((((Ana))))

Thank you for letting us know so we can be thinking of you. Let yourself grieve, and then you can begin to gather your strength.

Wishing you a full and smooth recovery,

Vivian

[SheRa]

((((((Ana))))))

it's hard to find the right words in situations like this, but just know that many MANY good thoughts for a smooth and speedy recovery are coming your way from me and my family. thank god it was caught early. stay strong!

[oceanjasper]

Just want you to know that my thoughts and prayers are with you.

[jjsooner73]

[[[Hugs]]] Ana!
You're in my thoughts.

[KAnn]

I am also so sorry that this has happened to you, Ana....you will be in my thoughts and I will send positive and healing thoughts your way.

You have also just reminded me that I have put off a mammogram far too long. I will schedule it tomorrow.

[mmbedard]

Sending you positive thoughts, prayers and big hugs.

[Lauren]

Ana,

Sending prayers and hugs to you. Please know this community is here for you whenever you feel like talking. It is a miracle you were diagnosed so quickly.

[lhall]

Ana,

I am so sorry!! More prayers are on the way!

Be strong!!

I am thankful that it was caught early, and for the persistence of your radiologist!

Leigh

[mcgeiger]

That sucks:(

Sending wishes that everything goes well with treatment (and fast!)

[Beth]

Ana, I didn't see this yesterday and I don't have time to read all 4 pages of replies, so I'm sure I'm repeating but I am going to add my voice to thosse saying sorry you had to hear those words or say them. I know that is hard. I also know you are a self-proclaimed worrier.

OK. You really need to shift from super-worry to a positive focus. Time to take a deep breath and realize how fortunate you are for finding this so early. You got the needle in the haystack. You had an angel sitting on your shoulder -- so be thankful for that and be confident. Breathe, relax enjoy every positive and beautiful momnet. It will make a HUGE difference in how you feel and in the success of your treatment. Time to let go of thet worry crutch.

[RunnerKim]

((((Ana))))
Thinking of you.

Kim

[Farhana]

I'm so sorry to hear this. You will be in my prayers and may God help you and your family.

[memartha]

(((Ana)))

I'm glad this was caught early. You'll be in my prayers.

[boisewinesnob]

Sorry to hear about this :(

[Chris415]

Coming out of lurkdom to tell you I'll be thinking of you, Ana, and sending you lots of positive thoughts of peace and healing. God bless those doctors who kept pressing for more tests!
Chris

[Beth]

I didn't say it, but of course, you will be in my thoughts and prayers too.

[Natasha]

Ana,

I'm very sorry to read your news, but like everyone else am so glad they caught it early. Many many good thoughts are coming your way.

Natasha

[swquilts]

(((Ana))) Like everyone has said, TG your doctor was diligent in his testing! Early detection equals less invasive measures I've heard.

Take care of yourself! My thoughts are with you!

[KimKelly]

Ana, I didn't see this yesterday and I don't have time to read all 4 pages of replies, so I'm sure I'm repeating but I am going to add my voice to thosse saying sorry you had to hear those words or say them. I know that is hard. I also know you are a self-proclaimed worrier.

OK. You really need to shift from super-worry to a positive focus. Time to take a deep breath and realize how fortunate you are for finding this so early. You got the needle in the haystack. You had an angel sitting on your shoulder -- so be thankful for that and be confident. Breathe, relax enjoy every positive and beautiful momnet. It will make a HUGE difference in how you feel and in the success of your treatment. Time to let go of thet worry crutch.

Beth's post says it all! I forwarded it to another friend of mine in a similar situation.

Hang in there! We will all be here thinking of you and sending good, positive thoughts your way. I'm so thankful you kept looking and found this at such an early stage. Here's to you on the road to recovery.

Kim

[dreamer]

Ana,
I have been away from the BB for some months and was just planning to let myself take a quick swing through tonight (of course I miss it!) when I saw your thread. I was so sorry to hear what you are dealing with. I can only imagine how you might be feeling. It must certainly feel pretty overwhelming. But I hope the support of everyone is helping you feel less alone. I always have enjoyed reading your thoughtful contributions to the BB; now I hope life in turn gives you back some of your own thoughtfulness and kindness. You need it, and you deserve it!

Take good care,
dreamer

[Kristilyn1]

Please add my good thoughts and those of my family. Here's to a fast and as uneventful recovery as possible.

Kristi

[SandyM]

Ana,

Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you. Sending hugs your way..........

[phantomcg]

Oh, Ana, I'm so very sorry to hear of your diagnosis, but I'm glad to hear that it was discovered so early on.

My thoughts and prayers will be with you and your Dr's as you move through your treatment.

(((((Ana)))))

Cheryl

[mst]

I am thinking of you.

[syzygy]

((((Ana)))), I am so sorry that you are having to deal with this, but know that there are even more prayers and good wishes coming your way for a complete and easy recovery. A positive attitude will help so much.

Last night I received an email from a dear friend to let me know that she had gone in for a PET scan and they found a 12 mm self contained mass between her liver & kidney which biopsied positive. She starts chemo next week, and ended her email "I have a very busy Spring & Summer and I don't intend to let the cancer slow me down. I feel great and intend to stay that way." And I know she will. And so will you!

[HRJ]

(((Ana)))

I just got back from a week out-of-town and thought I'd take a quick look at the BB -- I am so sad and stunned to see your post.

It is almost miraculous, and welcome news, that your doctor found it so early, and it sounds like you're in good hands. As one worrier to another, I know it's hard to stay positive and not go down the "what if" trail -- but, you are a strong woman, and I know you'll come through this even stronger. And you have a huge support network here.

I will be thinking of you.

Helene

[jrichards]

Ana,

I'm so sorry to hear this!

I know from your posts what a strong, educated, and healthy lifestyle person you are. Those are all going to be in your corner in this situation. Not to mention that I'm sure your fantastic DH will be a great support and resource for you.

This sucks, but glad it was caught early. I'm sending out all my warm fuzzies and good thoughts your way.

Jennifer

[KristiB]

I'm wishing you a speed recovery!

{{HUGS}}

[beckms]

guess that is a good news bad news thing, huh?
:( :(

Definitely GOOD news. Maybe not the news you were hoping for, but I am so glad you found out now rather than years from now. I hope you know that lots of people on this BB are thinking of you and we will await all of your updates as you go along with your treatment.

Best wishes :)

[LaraW]

Ana, I am so sorry to hear about your diagnosis. As others have said, it is a miracle that it was caught so early and not years from now. Take care and know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.

[wallycat]

First, thank you all so very much for your kind words and good thoughts.
I met with the surgeon yesterday. He deals with a lot of cancer and breast cancer specifically.

He was very patient and answered the questions he was able to.
He looked at the films and then did the physical exam...
He can't say for sure but assumes there will be no surprises. He said that he is seeing more and more Lobular cancers, sadly.
I personally wish that baseline breast MRI would be allowed, just like mammos.
As most have read my post, lobular cancer is called "sneaky" because it grows flat and so rarely shows on Mammograms until it gets bigger.

After my exam, he said after looking at my films and feeling my breasts, there is NO way he would have even considered that I had cancer. None. He said there is no way to feel a 9mm mass and he is feeling zero, zilch, nada, zip. He has no idea how I assumed that this was the case. He said no doubt he would have sent me home. That just terrifies me. Not only for me but for other women who may end up in the pile that get sent home and shouldn't.
It seems like even a perfectly clean mammogram isn't a guarantee.
He did mention that some new studies are thinking birth control use may contribute to some breast cancers, not especially LOB, though this is typically a hormone responsive type and found in women on HRT after 55.

I am waiting with anticipation for the doc's office to call and still nothing. I want the surgery and NOW. I want this thing gone and I want to know what I'm dealing with...
and more bad news....if I take Ativan for anxiety, I can't have my wine with dinner :eek: :mad: That is mean! :p

[Robyn1007]

Ana, all I can say is someone or something is looking out for you! It's astonishing to hear that so many people would have never thought twice and sent you home. I don't blame you for wanting it out of you NOW! I know that in just the time I had to wait for ultrasound I wanted to be in surgery now rather than waiting if that was what needed to happen. It's a strange feeling to know (or think there may be) something inside of you that is so dangerous.

And I agree, no wine with dinner?!?! :eek: :mad:

[sneezles]

Wow! Sending you home would have been disastrous. I hope that you hear from the office soon and can get the surgery scheduled asap. If the Activan is working then just have some grape juice in the wine glass!;)

[tamawrite]

OMG, Ana. I missed this thread until now, but please believe you are in my prayers. :( :( :(

[LakeMartinGal]

If the Activan is working then just have some grape juice in the wine glass!;) Or gingerale... think of it as the champagne you deserve for making sure you got to the right people for the diagnosis! ;)

[lorilei]

Ana -
I haven't checked in on the boards in quite a while -- but when I saw your news, I had to take the time to reply.

I am SO glad that you were lucky enough to have detected the mass when you did! It's shocking that it wouldn't have been found otherwise -- and I'm grateful that you're here, sharing your story with us. It definitely gives me pause!

You'll most definitely be in my prayers! Feel free to email me if you'd like!

Lori

[granolagirl]

I'm so sorry, but good for you for advocating for your health. I hope that other women will be inspired by you. Thinking of you.

[wallycat]

Hi all,
surgery is scheduled for Tuesday, 17th.
Pre-op prep/tests this week (OK, another worst nightmare...I am TERRIFIED they will find something else. What if my heart is bad or my liver is bad...aaacckk, this is a worrier's worst nightmare!!)

OK, I know I need to put on my big-girl-panties here :o :o

Wish me luck!! :( :o (I wish they had a "terrified" smilie)

[aggie94]

Ana,

I am SO sorry that this is happening to you. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your DH.

I wish you all the best with your continuing treatment.

[sneezles]

(OK, another worst nightmare...I am TERRIFIED they will find something else. What if my heart is bad or my liver is bad...aaacckk, this is a worrier's worst nightmare!!)



I know exactly how you feel because I had those same thoughts when I had my pre-op tests before my skin cancer surgery. You, dear, take much better care of yourself and even if they do find something better now and deal with it! Remember you need to focus on the positive!:)

[Kyra]

Ana, I am also just now seeing this thread. I am sending you lots of hugs and positive, healthy thoughts. Please keep us updated. We are thinking of you often!

[cniles]

((Ana)) - I just saw the thread. Thank God the surgery is scheduled. You will be in my thoughts and prayers- hang tight sweetie and keep us posted. You've got a lot of support here.

[LakeMartinGal]

Hi all,
surgery is scheduled for Tuesday, 17th.
Pre-op prep/tests this week (OK, another worst nightmare...I am TERRIFIED they will find something else. What if my heart is bad or my liver is bad...aaacckk, this is a worrier's worst nightmare!!)

OK, I know I need to put on my big-girl-panties here :o :o

Wish me luck!! :( :o (I wish they had a "terrified" smilie)Glad they've got it scheduled, and fairly quickly, too!

Once you get the surgery behind you, and the cancer is GONE, you can quickly move to looking ahead to life after cancer. :) Hopefully, all they will have you do is radiation and possibly tamoxifen or armidex. But, even if you have to do chemo, there is an end-date. This is when you are DONE with treatment, and this is time is a lot closer than it appeared a month ago, isn't it? Pretty soon, your 5 years will be up, and maybe you'll have forgotten the exact diagnosis!:rolleyes:

Keep good thoughts, dear Ana, you are close to being over the hump, now. After all the fears of the pre-diagnosis, and the crying/fears over the diagnosis, now you are facing the known aspects of this, and you have a plan!;)

Not to say that it's easy... I don't mean to poopoo what you're going through, but there is a positive side, and that's where you need to keep looking! :)

(((((Ana)))))

[Alethea]

I just saw this thread. :( Ana, I'm so sorry you're going through this. I can only imagine how nerve-wracking it must be. I'm glad they caught it so early, and could schedule the surgery quickly. The limbo feeling must be terrifying. You and your DH are in my thoughts.

[lorilei]

Hi all,
surgery is scheduled for Tuesday, 17th.
Pre-op prep/tests this week (OK, another worst nightmare...I am TERRIFIED they will find something else. What if my heart is bad or my liver is bad...aaacckk, this is a worrier's worst nightmare!!)

OK, I know I need to put on my big-girl-panties here :o :o

Wish me luck!! :( :o (I wish they had a "terrified" smilie)



I can just imagine how you're feeling!!

On the bright side -- you've got all sorts of people pulling for you and praying for you! And that's a lot of good energy out there!! ;)

Just think of how you will feel on Wednesday!!

Hugs...

[Debralynn]

So sorry about your diagnosis, so glad you caught it so early. Good luck with your treatments. It sounds like you have an excellent physician. Can I ask your advise about this please???
I have a 16 year old daughter who found one lump around October and another around Jan and the doctor keeps telling me its nothing, and suggested maybe it will go away. It hasn't gone away, now there are two separate lumps on the same breast. She gets sharp pains that come and go. The unltrasound couldn't pinpoint the lumps, but the doctor can feel them. Same thing, they said that both lumps are smooth so don't worry. Should I still worry? They said they wouldn't do a biposy since it will leave a scar on a young girl??!! Should I be getting a second opinion? They have told me repeatedly that young girls have normal lumpy boobs, I never had lumpy boobs. Everything I read on the internet says that 80% of woman who get breast cancer, have NO relation to anyone with breast cancer. Does breast cancer run in your family? Thanks for listening. God bless you. Debbie

[Gumbeaux]

Wally',

I don't know what to say other than you are in my prayers.

[CindyWeightWatcher]

We're all thinking of you. Thank you for raising awareness on this subject for all of us. Please keep us posted.

[wallycat]

So sorry about your diagnosis, so glad you caught it so early. Good luck with your treatments. It sounds like you have an excellent physician. Can I ask your advise about this please???
I have a 16 year old daughter who found one lump around October and another around Jan and the doctor keeps telling me its nothing, and suggested maybe it will go away. It hasn't gone away, now there are two separate lumps on the same breast. She gets sharp pains that come and go. The unltrasound couldn't pinpoint the lumps, but the doctor can feel them. Same thing, they said that both lumps are smooth so don't worry. Should I still worry? They said they wouldn't do a biposy since it will leave a scar on a young girl??!! Should I be getting a second opinion? They have told me repeatedly that young girls have normal lumpy boobs, I never had lumpy boobs. Everything I read on the internet says that 80% of woman who get breast cancer, have NO relation to anyone with breast cancer. Does breast cancer run in your family? Thanks for listening. God bless you. Debbie

I am not a doctor, just a terrified woman.
At 16, I was fairly well developed but of course noone talked about mammograms for under 30-year olds.
There are so many hormones in the environment that I personally would not let anything go. I think it is, personally, better safe than sorry.
If she has a palpable lump, can they do a mammogram. My only concern with a mammogram is that she is in her very formative years and xrays at this time should really be a last resort (of course, my parents routinely made me get chest xrays for "annual physicals" that I didn't need....we didn't know about chest xrays and budding breasts).
If it is palpable, cant they do a needle biopsy for peace of mind?
Pains in the breast, especially growing breasts, is not unusual....mature women with continued breast pain are said to have it looked at....

If your gut is worried, I would push to do something.
Having said that, remember that 80% of all lumps and biopsies are negative.
She could have cysts, she could have a fibroadenoma, she could just be lumpy (I have been fibrocystic ever since I knew to check myself)....or it could be a hugely rare case of something unpleasant, but caught early, OK to deal with.

The odds are in her favor that it is nothing, but if you (and she!!) cannot let it go and it concerns you, find a doctor who can relate to your fear and worry and see what they recommend.
A scar at 16 may seem horrible, but in our 30's it is not a huge deal....and hopefully it is a scar she can brag is nothing ;)

Editing to add: There is (so far) NO cancer of ANY kind in my family.

[MrsReber]

Ana, for all the kind words, advice and support you have given to everyone here in the past, it will come back to you ten fold. We're all with you in thought with many prayers going out to you. I'm sure this is something you can beat.

[manetta]

I have been away for a few days and just saw this thread. I, too, will be sending positive, healing thoughts your way.

[eclairma]

I am just getting in on this thread too. Ana, please keep the faith. You are doing just what you should be and it sounds like you're in very capable hands. You are not alone in this and it sounds like there's a fantastic support system right here. I was diagnosed with stage IIB breast cancer last June. I was totally devasted but I decided to read all I could and educate myself. Unfortunately there is almost too much information out there sometimes. I was even getting myself scared. I went through surgeries, chemo, and radiation. I just finished that up on March 19th. Now I'm on tamoxifen for 5 years. I feel great. In January, after I finished up chemo, I went back to the gym. It was a slow start but I feel better than I did before my diagnosis. If you ever want to talk, please feel free to contact me. It's a scary thing but it won't last forever. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

[Peggy]

(((Ana))),

You have been in my thoughts and prayers since I heard about your MRI. We have been out of town and I just saw this thread.:( I am so sorry you received this diagnosis but am glad it was caught so soon. Good for you and your doctors for pursuing this so assertively.

I will continue praying for you and wish you strength as you face your surgery.

Peggy

[Robyn1007]

I am just getting in on this thread too. Ana, please keep the faith. You are doing just what you should be and it sounds like you're in very capable hands. You are not alone in this and it sounds like there's a fantastic support system right here. I was diagnosed with stage IIB breast cancer last June. I was totally devasted but I decided to read all I could and educate myself. Unfortunately there is almost too much information out there sometimes. I was even getting myself scared. I went through surgeries, chemo, and radiation. I just finished that up on March 19th. Now I'm on tamoxifen for 5 years. I feel great. In January, after I finished up chemo, I went back to the gym. It was a slow start but I feel better than I did before my diagnosis. If you ever want to talk, please feel free to contact me. It's a scary thing but it won't last forever. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

I just want to say congratulations! It sounds like you went through an almost identical treatment as my aunt who finished chemo a year ago yesterday.

Ana, also, you might want to pick up a book by Dr. Susan Love who is well regarded in the field.

[dreamer]

Ana,
Hi again, Ana-

I read your latest posts and am glad you have things set up. I know you must feel so scared. I wanted to share a resource that I turned to that helped me a lot. About 3 years ago, I had major surgery planned, with a specialist across the country, with major unknowns (and distressing known factors too). I was glad to have it finally planned, but as the day approached, I was really really scared about so many things about it.

I had heard about a woman, Peggy Huddleston, who wrote a book for people in this situation (preparing for surgery) and since I couldn't find it locally, did order it express via her website. But I also saw she offered phone consultation. Since the time was so short, and I knew I'd be only able to scan her book on the plane, I did do the phone consult (she was able to schedule it quickly).

She was a gem, and incredibly helpful. My anxiety level really came down (which I'd thought would be impossible!) I went into surgery in a better state than I would have, for sure. I just felt a sense of relief after talking to her. She also has info on her website (find by googling). You are getting lots of support here, but I wanted to share this with you in case it'd be of interest to you.

Take care- know we're all thinking of you!!
-dreamer

[Debralynn]

Thank you Ana for your response and all of your kind words. I am pretty new to this website and appreciate your opinion. My 18 yr old Nephew finished the last of his chemo in December for Hodgkins. He wanted only "good vibes" from the whole family, no crying allowed. His last PET scan was normal! Well I'll tell you, he had alot of people praying and sending good vibes his way, and by the response on this thread, I can see that you to have nothing but good vibes and prayers coming your way. Early detection is the key, you are lucky to have found it so early. I hope your treatments go smooth. I strongly feel that your good spirit and positive out look will get you through this, not to mention all of your friends here.
My daughter has a followup on Monday, I'm going to ask about an MRI or mammogram and see what they say. Thanks again. My prayers are with you, and all the good vibes too. Good luck, stop worrying, and take a deep breath very slowly exhaling adn relax everytime you start to get too nervous.
On the lgihter side,,,,,,,,,,, Do they let you go online in hospital rooms yet? I can't imagine being without my computer....lol Hugs to you, Debbie :)

[wallycat]

Debralynn,
Good vibes back to your daughter (and you!) as well. I am glad to hear you are following your gut...better it be nothing and checked than something and left alone.

Yes, they do have wi-fi in the hospital I am going to, but mine is outpatient. If I don't have too much nausea from the drugs, I'll sign on in the evening from home!

[krhm]

Ana, for all the kind words, advice and support you have given to everyone here in the past, it will come back to you ten fold. We're all with you in thought with many prayers going out to you. I'm sure this is something you can beat.

MrsReber said exactly what I was thinking! I am a big believer that this is true. ((Ana))

[whocares]

More good thoughts and wishes being sent your way. From sharing your posts throughout the years, I am impressed with the knowledge, grace and stamina you have shown - which will help in your treatment.

[cher48603]

Ana,

I've also just found this thread and wanted to let you know you're in my thoughts and prayers.

[eas11]

Ana,

So sorry to hear this and sooooo glad to hear your report that it was caught so early.
I know there's no stopping a worrier, so it's good that all of your tests/surgery will happen quickly and you can stop those worries. Do what you need to in order to curb the anxiety- I know you have keen awareness of all the possible tools....you're already using 1 good one by sharing your worries here and getting support.
I'm sending good healing vibes to you through cyberspace!

[Beth]

I'm glad things are getting going quickly for you. I do believe what goes around, comes around, so I'm sure you will receive many kindnesses and many blessings. Hope everything goes as smoothly as possible.

[JulieM]

Ana, I've been away and not on the board much lately and just saw this thread. Please know you are in my prayers. Thank goodness you caught this early. Big hugs and best wishes to you!!!

[LakeMartinGal]

I have a 16 year old daughter who found one lump around October and another around Jan and the doctor keeps telling me its nothing, and suggested maybe it will go away. It hasn't gone away, now there are two separate lumps on the same breast. She gets sharp pains that come and go. The unltrasound couldn't pinpoint the lumps, but the doctor can feel them. Same thing, they said that both lumps are smooth so don't worry. Should I still worry? They said they wouldn't do a biposy since it will leave a scar on a young girl??!! Should I be getting a second opinion? They have told me repeatedly that young girls have normal lumpy boobs, I never had lumpy boobs. Everything I read on the internet says that 80% of woman who get breast cancer, have NO relation to anyone with breast cancer. Does breast cancer run in your family? Thanks for listening. God bless you. DebbieWell, you didn't ask me,;) but I would go to another doctor - a breast specialist - because that pain that you describe is exactly what I felt before I was diagnosed, 5 years ago. It is probably nothing, as the first doctor said, but it's better to be safe! If your daughter would me more comfortable with a woman doctor, you should be able to find one...

My paternal grandmother had breast cancer, and the current thinking is that it runs in the maternal side... my drug reactions and allergies are more like my dad's, though -- I don't think they know enough about it to say for sure!

Keep us posted, if you follow up with this! Good luck to you and your daughter! :)

[Debralynn]

Hello LakeMartinGal, Thanks, I am taking her to see a breast specialist who happens to be a woman. I really don't want a male doctor since she is only 16. I too am concerned about the coming and going of sharp pains! I appreciate your input. There is not a history of breast cancer in my family. My family MD keeps saying that it's nothing to worry about. But since we were still worried he suggested we go see the ob/gyn. The gyn told us to wait a few weeks and the lump would most likely be gone by the next appointment. Well, it didn';t go away. Then 3 months later another lump was found, and again the gyn said maybe that will be gone when we see you again. Since they didn't go away and we were still worried, even more worried now, the gyn sent us to the breast specialist. The only test she has had was an ultrasound that did not show any lump, they claim teeneagers breast tissue is so dense that it is difficult to "see" the lump on an ultrasound. I just don't feel that we have had an answer from any of the doctors that can put my mind at ease. On the other hand, maybe I am over-reacting since this is my only daughter and I have never had a lump on my breast. Sooooooooo, I have had a family MD, Ob/gyn and a breast specialist all tell me that its nothing, just by feeling it! What would you do at this point? I still have an appointment on Monday with the specialist and want to request an MRI or Mammogram. What do you think? Thanks for your feedback. Sincerely, Debbie :)

[Paula H]

I haven't been on the boards lately, so only just saw this - just wanted to say how glad I am for you that it was found so early Ana.

Thinking of you and wishing you all the best.

[wallycat]

Debbie,
my breast surgeon--already knowing I have the mass--said he could not palpate it... Mine is 9mm in size and he said no human hand can detect that (he still has no idea what made me suspicious as there is nothing unusual to his hand and the films---except the MRI ).
That is NOT to say your daughter has anything serious.
MOST --80% ---of masses in the breasts are benign---nothing.
From your post you are simply not satisfied and something is encouraging you to investigate further.

If you go through further tests and it truly is nothing, it can be such a relief.
I know you will not beat yourself up to have found nothing but WOULD if you let it go and it turned into something .....
so go to the specialist and let both of you be assured that these are benign lumps.

Go in thinking positive thoughts (Oy! I wish I remembered those words more often) and we will be thinking about you.

Do post back and let us know how things turn out for you and your daughter.

[Debralynn]

Hi Ana, My good vibes and happy thoughts and tons of prayers are coming your way as you approach your surgery date. I wish you the best. Stay positive!

The only thing I can say is that my personality is very stubborn and I never liked gray areas, everything is black and white (in my perfect world...lol). I was one of those kids that kept asking "why?" until I got an answer, lol, and I still do that. I'm beginning to think it's a curse. Waiting and watching is very difficult for me. I always want things NOW, I am not a procrastonator, again another curse! I'll keep you updated on my daughter.

Hugs, prayers, more hugs, and many more prayers to you Ana. :) I thank you for sharing your information with all of us, the entire thread has been a wealth of information. I am sorry if I hijacked your thread with questions about my daughter, as you know this is a very freightening time. You are a very lucky woman to have such an early early diagnosis with stage one. Good luck next week. ((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))) )
Debbie :)

[Peggy C.]

Thoughts and well wishes to you and yours!

Peg and DH=

[cherylopal]

i've been off the boards for about a month and OMG

((((((((((((((((((Ana))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

You are in my thoughts and prayers esp tues.

[Wendy w]

(((((((((((Ana))))))))))))

As one who has been off of the boards for awhile and has been thankful for your insights, support, and wisdom in my time of need, I send many positive thoughts and prayers to you, my friend.