Disgusted
08-22-2007, 09:03 AM
I'm a long-time poster, but I'm posting anonymously for the first time ever. I think you'll understand why. . .
About a month ago, one of my kids started complaining of anal itching at night. I did some research, realized she probably had pinworms, and took her to the doctor the very next day. The diagnosis was confirmed and everyone in the family was treated for them. We cleaned our (already clean) house from top to bottom, washed all bedding, towels, etc. My daughter's infection seems to have completely cleared up, and as far as I've been able to tell, my other child never got it.
But now I have them. And I can't seem to get rid of them. I'm so disgusted, and completely helpless.
I'm being treated with a prescription medication (mebendazole), which doesn't seem to be working at all. 5 days after the first dose of my second round of treatment, and they're still there. I know because I can see them. In addition to the medication, I'm washing all our clothing, sheets, towels, everything every single day to discourage reinfection.
I feel like I shouldn't be out in public, because I could be spreading the eggs even though I'm doing everything I possibly can to avoid it. I'm afraid to send my kids to play with their friends or have any other kids over here to play, because I don't want to spread this. But it's been A MONTH and it's not getting better.
I did some research online, and while the medication knocks the parasites out for most people, it looks like it doesn't work for some people and there are people out there who have had them, despite aggressive treatment for months, and even years.
I'm so discouraged and ashamed (even though I know it's not technically my fault). I don't feel like it's something I can talk to anyone about. I feel alone and I feel completely disgusting. I've withdrawn from my husband and my friends. I can't sleep because I can feel them, and when I can't feel them, I'm still thinking about it. Last night I literally got 3 hours of sleep, which is also not good for my state of mind.
I don't know what I expect this post to accomplish. I just needed to get it all out.
About a month ago, one of my kids started complaining of anal itching at night. I did some research, realized she probably had pinworms, and took her to the doctor the very next day. The diagnosis was confirmed and everyone in the family was treated for them. We cleaned our (already clean) house from top to bottom, washed all bedding, towels, etc. My daughter's infection seems to have completely cleared up, and as far as I've been able to tell, my other child never got it.
But now I have them. And I can't seem to get rid of them. I'm so disgusted, and completely helpless.
I'm being treated with a prescription medication (mebendazole), which doesn't seem to be working at all. 5 days after the first dose of my second round of treatment, and they're still there. I know because I can see them. In addition to the medication, I'm washing all our clothing, sheets, towels, everything every single day to discourage reinfection.
I feel like I shouldn't be out in public, because I could be spreading the eggs even though I'm doing everything I possibly can to avoid it. I'm afraid to send my kids to play with their friends or have any other kids over here to play, because I don't want to spread this. But it's been A MONTH and it's not getting better.
I did some research online, and while the medication knocks the parasites out for most people, it looks like it doesn't work for some people and there are people out there who have had them, despite aggressive treatment for months, and even years.
I'm so discouraged and ashamed (even though I know it's not technically my fault). I don't feel like it's something I can talk to anyone about. I feel alone and I feel completely disgusting. I've withdrawn from my husband and my friends. I can't sleep because I can feel them, and when I can't feel them, I'm still thinking about it. Last night I literally got 3 hours of sleep, which is also not good for my state of mind.
I don't know what I expect this post to accomplish. I just needed to get it all out.