Mlasley
03-25-2008, 01:55 PM
I don't know if I'm looking for help or just someone to listen.
I was the victim of a hate crime about 2 years ago, was diagnosed with acute anxiety disorder and severe depression and put on lexapro, buspar, and clonazepam. I was a zombie. I tapered off buspar and clonazepam, then lexapro didn't seem to work so I was changed to effexor. That worked then pooped out so I was changed to cymbalta. Then a psychiatrist got ahold of me and felt the current dose wasn't enough so doubled the cymbalta, added wellbutrin, buspar, and clonazepam. Zombie again, but very dangerous and radical behavior changes. I was having difficulty figuring out what was real and what was a dream so I cut everything in half myself while I found a new psychiatrist. She (and a psychologist I am seeing) said I have post traumatic depressive disorder. She started me on a taper schedule; the first week was ok but then I had a stomach bug for a few days and didn't take anything so just decided to go cold turkey. I am so sick. I can't focus, I'm queasy, I quit my job because I work as a health care provider and didn't feel like I was providing the best care. I lpacked a bag and left home last night to stay with a friend so my child doesn't have to see this. I have a beautiful 6 year old DD, I'm trying to get a business off the ground, and just want to know if anyone out there has an idea of how long it will take for the neurotransmitters to start kicking again? Any personal experiences? The new psych says she wants to start me on a very low dose of effexor (I refused cymbalta) when she sees me next week. I am so leary of any meds right now. Please think good wishes in my direction if nothing else. TIA.
I was the victim of a hate crime about 2 years ago, was diagnosed with acute anxiety disorder and severe depression and put on lexapro, buspar, and clonazepam. I was a zombie. I tapered off buspar and clonazepam, then lexapro didn't seem to work so I was changed to effexor. That worked then pooped out so I was changed to cymbalta. Then a psychiatrist got ahold of me and felt the current dose wasn't enough so doubled the cymbalta, added wellbutrin, buspar, and clonazepam. Zombie again, but very dangerous and radical behavior changes. I was having difficulty figuring out what was real and what was a dream so I cut everything in half myself while I found a new psychiatrist. She (and a psychologist I am seeing) said I have post traumatic depressive disorder. She started me on a taper schedule; the first week was ok but then I had a stomach bug for a few days and didn't take anything so just decided to go cold turkey. I am so sick. I can't focus, I'm queasy, I quit my job because I work as a health care provider and didn't feel like I was providing the best care. I lpacked a bag and left home last night to stay with a friend so my child doesn't have to see this. I have a beautiful 6 year old DD, I'm trying to get a business off the ground, and just want to know if anyone out there has an idea of how long it will take for the neurotransmitters to start kicking again? Any personal experiences? The new psych says she wants to start me on a very low dose of effexor (I refused cymbalta) when she sees me next week. I am so leary of any meds right now. Please think good wishes in my direction if nothing else. TIA.